I’ve been playing a ton of games lately. 66 hours on Steam in the last two weeks shouldn’t be possible with an internship and a full schedule of classes, yet my will to remain stationary seems to transcend possibility. It’s been making me question a lot why I spend so much, if not all of my “free time” doing nothing but playing games. I don’t think I have an answer, but I do have a few random thoughts.
I’ve put 52 hours into Pillars of Eternity since I picked it up right around its release three weeks ago, and I sort of feel guilty about it. Yes, it’s one of the best games I’ve played in years (check out my “What I’ve Been Playing Lately” for this week) and yes, it has an extremely well realized tale to tell much to the standards of any top fantasy novel, but something makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong spending so much time alone in a room every single day. I love playing this game. It’s a great experience. But it isn’t a shared experience, and I’m not sure if I should be seeking that out more.
Am I demotivated or am I simply doing what I actually want to do? There is such a thing as “too much” when it comes to almost everything, so ostensibly that would pertain to gaming as well. Yet I remember going to PAX East last month and how that really solidified that video gaming is my passion. The key difference between that and 66 hours of singleplayer on a dorm room bed? The focus is on social interaction. I’m still happy with the routine I’ve been leading, I just have been asking a few more questions about it. Maybe I’ll end up playing some more Smash Bros or CS: GO.